The wonders of children

Every night I put you to sleep in my bed. I lay down next to you and get lost in the most profound wonder of the universe. I lay there and stare, and stare, and stare. I watch you breath those quick little baby breaths, I look at those tiny little fingers and toes, how peaceful you look when your asleep.
Then I realize how important you are, not just to me, but to this world. You are truly God's Masterpiece! I can find no flaw. You are absolutely perfect because your so pure. You cannot make bad choices yet, so we are filled with hope that somehow we can raise you to make good choices in your future.
Without you, we wouldn't have a future, for you are our future. Without you, what would we have to live for?
while I'm pondering this, I think of you while your awake, (I can't help watching you then either) you're so full of life, laughter, love, and curiosity. You represent everything that's good in the world. This is how I know you were a gift from God. How could someone so flawed as me create something so precious as you? God has given you to me to teach me what He intended life to be. We have drifted so far, I'm surprised he hasn't given up on us yet.
But you are our hope. The universal goal among us, as parents, is to teach you to make good decisions, to make the best of life, and to be a good person. Then, when you're ready to fly, hopefully we'll have made this world a better place to live in and you'll be safe and happy.
I look at you again... I'm scared. Afraid of what I may not be capable of, of how I might wrong you. I'm only human. I'm sure I'll make bad decisions, but what if I make a really bad choice and you turn against me in the future? I couldn't bear it. I'm so filled with worry and love sometimes I think I might explode. This is being a parent. Stress, confusion, happiness, love, wonder, adventure, worry, worry, worry, and more love. How can I protect you? What things should I let you learn for yourself? I feel so weak. You hold my heart in your little hands. One whimper out of your precious mouth and I'm by your side in an instant to comfort you. I'd do anything to make you happy. Is that wrong? I just can't help it. You are my life, my love, my joy and my happiness. I love you forever,
Your mother

Mia

My all-time favorite thing to do is watching Mia take in the world. She's so curious and open. I like to play with her too, but watching her is definately my favorite thing! I try to make all those memories stick in my mind so I can always remember.